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Time Flies

Was checking through my friendster and also my blogs, and realise that i haven't been bloggin like for ages. Times really flies by... Suddenly it's going to be year end and was sitting down and thinking what have i been doing for the past few months. Sometimes just wonder how short if time and how little things that you can actually do. First of all, i will like to say SORRY to my friend that i haven't been spending time with you guys. I know some of you are really pissed off of me being MIA, but i hope you guys can forgive me. Life have been the busiet of my life. Haven't been stopping working at all, and this had basically take up a lot of my time and also my life. With all the setups and running here and there, i relaly felt really tired and exshauted. Sometimes i really hope that i can take a break, but the reality is that i can't afford to fall sick or even taking a break. Time is limited and here comes busy days in rushing for Christmas prepartions and events. What is new man... Sometimes, i just wonder whether i made a decision in getting into this line. Looking at how people are able to enjoy their time, and all i am doing is just work, work, and nothing but work. I was joking with my friends the other day, i think with this kind of lifestyle, no matter how much skincare i use also it's useless. Unless there are like miracle cream in this world. DUH!!!!! Seriously it came to a point that i don't mind working at all, but how long can this be? I can't be working every weekend and not having a rest and seriously I NEED A LIFE>....... Was talking to my colleague today, and was thinking of letting go. Cause i seriously cannot take it anymore. If my hard work is being appreciated, i seriously have no complains about it. But what is the point. No matter how hard i try and fight..... nothing seems to be working... and nothing seems to fulfill the big boss's needs. What is it that they wanted from me? I think at this moment, the only things which are really holding me back in making the decision are the LM girls. I was thinking that i can't let them down at this moment and they really need someone to help them and keep figthing for them. But i think now it's already reach the point which i really do not know how long i can last........

Tiring moments

Sometimes you will wonder what the purpose of us being in this world is. Everyday you will see people dying, new born babies, people getting sick. Have you ever wonder why things kept happening around you and what will you feel. I have came to a point in my life where I kept on thinking what is the main purpose of God giving me this life and what does he wants me to learn in this world. We laugh, we cry, we face heart breaks and see people leaving us. It makes me see how tiring a person life is. Recently, I found that there are a few people around me who have cancer. It’s really heart breaking, where you find out that the people who are dear to you are having such hard time. Sometimes it will make me wonder…… What did this people did in order to get them into this situation. Do they really deserve it? But why them? And why not those people who are out there who really deserves all these punishments? Why do good people have to get sick and face with these entire difficult situations, while people who always go around hurting people are still happily doing what they are doing and nothing happen to them? Don’t you think this is a bit unfair?

I have been thinking about this for the whole day and I have come to this point that I am really tired. Not to say physically tired, but mentally I am really tired. Tired of??? Well, I can say that I am really tired of work, tired of the people being fake around me, tired of not being treated fairly and appreciated, and tired of taking care of everyone around. I mean, I am also a human being, I too need a break and need someone to love, care and be there to support me whenever I wanted. It that too much to ask for?

One of my friend told me that he had stomach cancer, another subordinate of mine also have cancer and she is now lying in the hospital, and recently I only found out that another girl friend of my had lung cancer. What is happening around? I mean these people are all really nice and what did they do to deserve all these? Don’t you think it’s a bit unfair? Sometimes it makes you wonder. We always care about what we eat, how we live our live, but then things like that happen to you. What can we say about it? We can’t do anything but to face with the reality and fight against it. But WHY?

I talked to one of my friend the other. He was asking me, what is the purpose of us working our ass up everyday and making ourselves burned out, but there are people out there who just does not need to be like our situation and they are so happy with their life and they can just have anything that they wanted. Do you think this is fair? All of us worked hard in order to make living, and it’s really disappointing when you find out that of all the time that you are working hard, no one actually appreciated it. Well I know, some of you will say that, we do things for ourselves, but not for others. But then, won’t you be thinking, why are we going through all these?

Oh, I just resigned recently, and I was really sad and disappointed when I found out that people can just be so fake. They stop talking to you, they treat you like you are transparent, while all these time, and you were being friendly to everyone around you. Well at least I know who my true friends are around. Those who are you true friend will never change. I am just getting really tired. With all these work issues, friends get sick, people betraying you…. When is it going to stop? Why is so hard to be nice to people? Why can’t people just be sincere and be straight forward? Isn’t it hard to pretend all the time? It’s just too tiring to handle all these things. Friend, just one advice. Just be yourself and don’t pretend to be someone who you are not. It’s just too tiring.

Life????

Life? What is the meaning of life. If any of you remembered the movie 'Forest Gum', you will remember that there is one sentense in the movie stating that Life is like a box of chocolate. Why? Because life is like the chocolate in the box. there are a lot of varieties in there and you won't know what you will get under all the coated chocolates. Isn't it interesting?

Well some people may say that life is normally means our present being here on earth, but this may be generalized to include life as a particular type of organization and development characterizing biological organisns, and even more universally as organization and development in geneneral.

But to me, life is like a challenge and a mystery. You won't know what will happen tomorrow or even the next minute in the day. Everything is just like a mystery and it's a challenge for us in order to prepare us every minute just to face with the things in front of us.

Well, i always have this policy in carrying on with my life, which is, live your life everyday like there is no tomorrow.Just enjoy every minute that you have and live it fully. Try to look everything at the positive side, and it will make you a happier and better person.

Just before a baby is born, an angel shows it everything there is to know and learn on Earth.Then at the moment of birth,the angel touches the infant's upper lip,and the child forgets everything. We spend the rest of our lives remembering what the angel showed us.This is a generic guide to the meaning of life. It does not describe one view of the meaning of life and recommend you adopt it. It helps you remember what the angel showed you. The angel showed you the meaning of life. In case you have not remembered yet, here is what the angel showed you. Just exactly as if you are landing a spaceship from another galaxy, your soul enters your body and lands here on Earth. Perhaps you come from our of nowhere, out of nothingness. Or else you had a previous existence somewhere,in another realm, or in this realm, and you have forgotten it. Perhaps you land here of your own free choice. Or some cosmic force some karma beyond you causes you to land on this planet; and you have no choice.No matter.This is Earth. You land and stay for a while. You come here to do certain specific things. You may have one task or many. Your tasks may be obvious to you, or you may need time, effort, maybe struggle, even to clarify your tasks. You may never quite even clarify your task until the moment your time in this body ends. You may work on your task for years before you realize, "This is my task." This tasks you came to perform may take the whole of your life or be done in an instant. You may be aware you are performing your life task while you do it. You may perform your task quickly, hardly nothicing anything special, unaware you are doing the task you came to do while you do it. Your task may be so eary, obvious and natural, you never even wonder, "what is my task?" your unique blend of talents and interests may lead you to your task and you just do it. Or, your task may be a constant, unpleasant struggle, you fight every step of the way. Your task may be noble and wonderful and gain you recognition, rewards and honors. Or, it may be simple, totally unnoticeable by anyone else. You will be born with a powerful innate desire to remain alive. You will do almost anything to continue living. At some point you may discover some limits, and allow your life to end. 

Every thought you have. Every action you take, Every feeling you perceive is an experience. Experiences are neither good nor evil. Some experiences are short, some are long. Some experiences will be fun, others will be excruciating. Sometimes experiences seems interconnected, sometimes they seem random. They are simply experiences.

You will find deities to which to attach your greatest fears and devotions. You may have one god or many. You may learn about your god and gods from others, or you may experience them yourself. Your gods may be attached specificaly to your tribe or they may claim a wider domain. Your god may be projections of human experience or they may be something beyond human experience with a reality all their own.

Thos who knew you will recall who you were, what you did, what you gave and the qualities you manifested. If you physically parented another, your genetic material will continue within them as well. Others' remembering you will continue to affect them directly and the whole planet indirectly and the whole planet indirectly in subtle and not so subtle ways.

But no matter what you do, always remember to live fully and put all the worries at the back, and your life will be full of excitement and happiness.

Days in the police station

These are the most unforgetable days and exprience that i will never forget. Don't you think so , Shah? Well, you won't believe it when i tell you that both of us went in and out of the police station for the past few days. PJ states, Brickfields, Travers and the last stop was Shah Alam. Heh! friends... It's not what you guys think it is ok? We didn't do anything wrong.... But it seems that Shah has started this rumour saying that i was too drunk and started to strip and she have to bail me out from the police station. NO!!!!!! that is not what happen ok? Heheheh. Cheeky shah. But anyways, thanks for the publicity. Hahahah... but i don't think that anyone will believe it cause i am SO INNOCENT!!!! don't you think so? :P

Well, Shah was just accompaning me to do some reports on commercial cases. Anyways, we have seen a lot of police officers, inspector. Heh friends, they are not as bad as we all used to think ok? Some of them are quite friendly. And guess what, because of all the travelling, we manage to get to know some really cool police mans.....

The journey starts from Wednesday night(1/Mar). We went to the police station in PJ states, and that was nearly 11.30 at night. We went in and sat there to make the reports. The police man saw my IC and hehehe... he said that my face is so sweet. ... Don't get jealous ok Shah? Anyways, they were very friendly and we were talking and talking. But after the police man finish typing the report into the system. Damnnn..... their system went down and they can't send the report. So we have no choice but to do it manually. The best news is that all these thing happen and we end up going back at aroun 1 in the morning. Can you believe that? Well, at least we are able to hear some interesting stories while we were there. There were these two girls came in and wanted to make a report... Said that the Ex were courting them... and they felt treaten and wanted to make a report. But, my goodness, you guys never wish that you were there, cause they were basically talking with the police man in this really broken Malay. While Shah and me were writting the reports, basically we just 'pasang telinga' lah. Kan mate? What is new. That is us. Anyways, when we finished, they told us that we were have to go to brickfields and also Shah alam cause it;s two cases which happen in different place. So we decided to do it the next day.

The second day: (2/Mar)

That was a scary day. Cause we saw the wicked witch and we were praying that we don't have to be entertain by her. Hehehehehe....We were really pissed that day, cause there were these two man who came in and jump queue, just because they know the big guy there. We were really angry in, but can't do anything isn't it. Anyways, when we sat down to make the report, the wicked witch told us that the inspectors were all moved to travers, and we have no choice but get into the car and drove to travers. It's was f**** hot ok? it was 34 degrees that day, and basically both of us were melting.  Well, i was really hot, and told Shah that i nearly wanted to faint,. Heheheh, then there is this guy there waiting for the inspectors also, was smilling at me because of my remarks. Sorry lah Shah, i know you were embarrased.... Anyways, we were there around 3.30pm,,, waited patiently... the best remark of the day? When the inspector saw us, he asked us what kind of job were we in? Cause we both lots like artist... Not bad huh Shah.. not bad!!!!!!!....  But it was not really fun, cause waiting for them took us nearly 4 hours and we end up getting home at around 7.00pm. Another tiring day.

The third day(3/Mar)

Went to Shah Alam to settle the final case. We were just sitting there patiently waiting for this kolonel Zulkifli typing in our report. And i think they should be sent for typing courses man. Cause i think it took him nearly half an hour just to type in like a two paragraph report. My goodness, no wonder they have that much of work.....

While we were waiting, we overheard a really funny case... Well, that is what you get from polilce stations.... All sorts of funny stories from the citizen. Anyways, there is this guy who came in to do a report. It seems that his Motocycle was being stolen. And the best part is that it was being stolen inside a shop. CAn you believe it? Even the police says that it's hard to believe. How can you park you vehicle in a shop, and the shop was not being break in and your vehicle was lost? increadible isn't it. Anwyays, i think the police did called the work shop and check on it. Do not really know the outcome cause we were being sent to the inspector's room after that. Well ,we waited and i went in. The inspector was so lazy, keep on saying that why i didn't photocopy all the documents and stuffs like that. heh that is their job isn't it? My goodness. He went out from the office and complained to Shah on his way out. Damn!!!!!!! Anhyways, the interview was only like 5 minutes and after that we were talking about other things... It seems that he was doing his degree and were asking us about the IT stuff. Can you believe that? Maybe their work is really that stress until they have no one to talk to. But, he was really nice, cause he took me and Shah to the canteen and bought us some drink... Anyways, that day was a bit faster. Took us around 2 hours plus to finish all the work.

Like i told Shah, can't believe that we actually went in and out of the police station in three days. That is not good.... But it's a pretty good experience though.

Thanks shah for your help.Thanks buddy